Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Just An Update


Hey Everyone!!


So, since I got my job two weeks ago things have been so crazy! Im working so many hours! Its great....but a lot of hard work. I was wondering if it was all worth it. Well...after getting my $317.59 paycheck today I can actually say....IT WAS SO WORTH IT! lol. There are some other issues our family and I are dealing with. But God remains faithful. Even though things right now are so uncertain with those issues...Im looking towards EBC in September and that gets me through this rough time right now. Work is also an outlet to get away from it all. I enjoy working at Paul Bunyan. The money is great, and the people are so fun to work with. It does get stressful and certain personalities come out that are sometimes hard to deal with. But its all good! I just give them their space and try my best to stay out of their way! haha. Its really all I can do. But like I said Im loving it! Keep the prayers coming, and I will write again soon! God Bless you! =)


Thursday, April 16, 2009

Gods Provision

Just wanted to let everyone know that I got a job this past week!! Its at a burger joint in the small town that I live in! Not as stressful as Starbucks! Which is great! I am so thankful and praising God for giving me this job! Now I can have most of the stress about September ease away and now Im just busy making money! Which is always great! lol. So thank you all who have prayed with me and for me during this time. Keep those prayers coming cause the devil is really working over time to discourage and make homelife not so great. So please keep fighting with me. Be my prayer warriors next to me. I love you all! I hope you're having an amazing God filled week!!

Monday, April 13, 2009

Such Passon Sacrifice & Love


To reconnect ourselves with the true meaning of Easter my mom, grandparents and I decided to watch Mel Gibsons "The Passion Of The Christ". As soon as it started I flashed back to the very first time I saw it. My family and I went and saw it in the movie theater when it was released. I remember being uncertain on what to expect. I had seen movies about the Crucifiction before, seeing the whole story from begininng to end. As I thought about it, those movies were pretty clean when it came down to the Crucifiction part. Little did I know the gore and bloodshed I had yet to see. When it got to that heartbreaking gruesome part, I began to cry. Never realizing the actual price my precious Jesus paid.

As it continued I began to sob. When I looked around the theater I noticed that I wasnt the only one. Women and even grown Men were crying. It was heartwrenching for every believer who has ever seen the movie. Last night when we were watching it again I had the same reaction. With every sound of the barbed whip making contact to His body I flenched getting tears in my eyes. I couldnt control my emotions and I dont think I will when I watch the movie. I again was also reminded of the love, devotion and sacrfice Jesus had for all man kind. Do you know of anyone who would die a death like that just for you? Thank God that we all have Jesus.

He paid the ultimate price. No other man has ever loved me that much, and no man probably ever will. Watching that movie made me fall in love with Jesus even more. Even though it was heartbreaking, and gutwrenching to watch it was the truest depiction of what it probably was like for Jesus. Mel Gibson wasnt afraid to show the truth of what it was really like. Although nobody can know or say what it was like exactly, Im sure it was along those lines. Which makes sacrifice more meaningful and sweet.

My Jesus chose to die the same death of horrible, bad criminals. Thieves hung on both sides of him and he was innocent and pure. Yet as he was hanging there, dying slowly, Jesus forgave the sins of one of those criminals. He told the man that he would follow Jesus into paradise. Amazing huh? As blood flowed onto the ground, his skin mutilated, his body broken and mangled. Jesus forgave the sins of that criminal and forgave us all. He forgave us and our sins, wiping our slates clean. As innocent blood was shed we were wiped clean of all our iniquities. Jesus loved us so much and that was shown through the passionate sacrifice of his life by dying on the cross. May we never forget the love, passion and sweet sacrifice our Jesus has for us. Never forget.


Isaiah 53:5

"But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed."

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Pondering...

Lately...I've really been doing a lot of thinking about my future and whats to come. I know that EBC is in my future but whats gonna happen after I take that step? Is my future gonna unfold right before my eyes without me even noticing it? Or...is God gonna slowly show me the desires of my heart, to help me be more thankful for it all? Gosh thats just a little bit of what Im thinking about. So much needs to get done, and so much needs to happen before September. Im afraid Im not gonna get it all done in time. I dont know if Im gonna have enough money for it, I dont know if I'll ever get the things I need for college itself.

Im trying so hard to believe that God will provide all my needs. If he allowed me to be accepted to EBC apparently He wants me there...so nothing can stop that right? I know that God has my way paved and taken care of already...I just wish I had the peace that it will all turn out. Im trying so hard to find a job and I still havent found one yet. Time is just ticking away! The weeks are rollin by and I still dont have any money saved or earned! It gets really frustrating!! Ahhh! I hate that I cant do much more! If it were up to me Id have a job already and a laptop! (Which I need for college!) ARG!! Its so frustrating!!!

"His mercies are new every morning..." Its a saying that a lot of my friends have been posting on their Facebooks lately. Its interesting that so many of my friends at the same time have been spoken too by that same saying. So...I started thinkin about it. "His mercies are NEW every morning..." To me, that says, God has it taken care of, and every morning when you wake up know that you dont have to worry about whats going on in life. It's just like that other scripture.

Matthew 6:34 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

That scripture has become a daily reminder that God has it all under control. No reason to worry or fret and get yourself worked up into a tissy! No. God has it taken care of! So why worry yourself into the ground about it? True enough I think! Sounds good to me!


Friday, April 3, 2009

My Love Song

This is my love song to the Lord...


Oh my soul runeth over with love for you my Lord. I lift up your name with a brand new song. For you are worthy of such things. My heart is joyful as I abandon all with praise and devotion for my God and King. You speak softly to me and I hear you. I do not fear because I know my lovers voice. The voice that brings me comfort and peace. I praise you Lord for what you bring into my life everyday. I sing a new song unto you Lord for you deserve it. Worthy is the lamb, worthy are you my God. Singing to you brings me joy and happiness.

I come to you as a young woman in love with the man of her dreams. You are my lover. You are the only one who has given me reason to love you so deeply. I cannot live without my beloved for I would be lost without you. You are all I need my love, hold me in your arms tightly for I feel safe from harm in them. I hold tighter to you Lord because I am so desperately in love with you. I dont need riches and fame because I am your princess. All you desire is my love and devotion and that is what I give to you and more.

I've never felt so in love before. You give me all I need and you deserve all of me. I sing to you a love song, a love song for my precious one, my beloved. My love for you goes deeper than the deepest ocean. When I'm not with you or in your presence I yearn to be there. My heart you hold so delicately careful not to disturb or hurt it in any way.

I need no earthly man because I get all devotion and love from you my beloved. My heart is spoken for because you have it. I dare not take it from you because you are the only one who deserves to keep it. I love you my beloved, you bring a smile to my face when your name escapes from my lips. I am completely devoted to you. I give you all of me for forever. I will sing to you a new love song everyday. A song from your beloved, a love song from your cherished one.

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Me